wild hope

i dont really know why i'm posting, i guess cause no one has in a while so i thought i would be the first to update on "life" because everyone's blogs have become a lot more deep. So let's get this started. I have definetely realized how hard it is to write a song and make the music. I have this journal that i write down words that might be able to be a song...but right now it just seems to look black and white(i mean its black ink on white paper so to a literal level, yes its black and white, but the words are more than that, theyre twisted, theyre helpless snipets of some thoughts, but what more can you ask from a teenager?)

It's twisted

Messed up

And the more I think about it

It's crazy, but so what

so what we're all "messed up" in our heads we think we're getting a grasp on the whole life concept...but it's too unfathomable to put into words, or your stupid blog. Words are just proof that you are crazy, your thoughts on paper, theyre screwed up...and it's why so many people can't or won't believe in God is because he's not as simple as a word, yea we try to make it like that...we take ideas on life like this run-on sentence and have a gazillion words on that one subject of life..but taking every single word, belief, your entire life and others and making it into one "person" responsible, only one word, God...well that there dares everything you once thought.

can you do that? or am i merely wishing on wild hope

In the crazy world

Anything can happen

If you will it to

I'm just a hazy girl

Blurring all the edges

Only seeing blue